Learning to let go 💔

Studies say it takes at least a year and a half or two years to get over a bad break up. I don't know how long this will take but I'm sure it will be more than that. See, the problem is I'm not divorcing him because I don't love him... I'm divorcing him exactly because of that, because I do love him, and he hurt me so much that if I stay in this relationship we will never be happy together. Why? Because he will never learn from his mistakes, he will continue cheating on me and treating me badly, because he takes me for granted and he knows I'll always be there for him. He knows I will forgive him every time he hurts me... Because he knows how in love with him I am. And then, there is another point, every time he hurts me again I will remember everything.. All the pain of the past 2 years... And I will probably get mad... So that's why we will never be happy. Why should I stay in a toxic relationship? Why should I put up with all his lies and bad temper? Why should I continue sacrifying my life for him? When all he does is showing me disrespect... When he treats me like garbage... When he says he loves me but we both know now that he doesn't. Because that's not love. If he thinks that's love... Then he's crazy... Or nobody taught him what love meant when he was a kid. At his age of 34 I'm hoping he learned from me what love is really all about. And with my example I hope he is able to learn how to love himself and then someone else. I hope he realizes that divorcing him is again a way of showing my love to him, because I want him to correct his mistakes and be happy, and have a beautiful family. I know the next person he dates will get all the benefits of my hard work. But that's ok. I hope he realizes I'm sacrifying my life again for him. Because he was my life. My whole life. He was the person I wanted to grow old with. He was the person I wanted to wake up with every morning and smile to. But that won't happen anymore. I'm learning to let go of the person I thought I knew... I'm learning to let go of my love.