Staring at the ceiling

Staring at the ceiling
Thinking about you
Thinking about us
Thinking about what went wrong?
Thinking about how to turn to the past
Thinking about how to avoid this pain
Thinking about how to stop crying
Thinking about how to make myself stop loving you
Thinking about God
Thinking about how to make this not real
Thinking about how to continue living without you
Thinking about making myself strong, somehow

Time goes by
And I'm still staring at the ceiling
I can't sleep
My eye bags get worse every day

I can't stop staring at the ceiling
I can't stop crying
I can't stop... staying awake every night thinking about us
Thinking about how all this love I feel for you
Doesn't mean anything to you

I can't believe it's over
I can't believe you cheated on me
I can't believe you never loved me
I can't believe you put such a great show
I can't believe I bought it
I can't believe my marriage is now a divorce

I will always love you regardless
I will always pray for you
I will always wish you the best
I will always... 
... kiss you good morning and good night in my dreams